Communication breakdown

It's been a confusing day around communications  today for a variety of reasons.

One to me shows the difficulty in communicating with a person who doesn't seem to have the ability to infer from reading what a communication is about, to take a note at the top of it that explains it gives you the impression they've just skimmed over it.

A response to say they don't know where it has come from is the literal sense impossible because it's obvious from your account it is from you and if by which you really meant you are not sure why you have sent it you might as well just say that as it is clearer even if the purpose is stated in the first paragraph. 

A better thing to had said is "Is there something I'm meant to do with it" or explain what it is that is confusing.

I have spent the best of of an hour trying to explain that in twenty twenty in England you cannot necessary get a doctors appointment on the day straight off the bat because you are highly likely given demand to have some questions from a Triage Nurse because it may be your bigger need is something that can be arranged such as a prescription item.

It sadly isn't going in.

Then there is a person who seems to think you can ask a series of questions related to ASB presentation as single individual questions expecting an more instantaneous conversation to this in real time.

Well apart from time and well-being constraints  as admin, it would of been better to have asked for some ideas in a thread to which people of explained.

There may be reasons why this person seems communicate in this style but trying to deal with it isn't easy.

Just seems to be one of those days.

Electrics issues and just being a boy

 Well it is a Wednesday so I'd normally write something on here but the weeks been rather messy with five days without email at all and this a screwed up return that doesn't allow for sending emails and erratic receiving incoming mail so I had to spend time remaking site contact stuff and the like. 

That kind of stuff takes me away from where I really am mentally.

Everyone is an individual and where and what they get from being an ASB can vary so I would not say there's a "true" asb with the inference anything else wasn't.

Sometimes you'll find someone in the ASB world who does think is it's a kind role playing scenario or a way of disguising a kink interest.

For some there is a connection to being ASB in BDSM, roles, power exchange, the cp obviously and that's great IF that's you.

Others may while accepting cp may be coming at things from a more age regressive in the mindset of the person who at that point or in certain respects remains a youngster.

To in that context dress more as their younger selves so how they see themselves matches their reflection, possibly do some studying and (for some) receive for sort of cp of that era for those thing that may of been seen as appropriate punishment is it.

It wouldn't be about attending club style cp events with that as the central point even if attending a role play school might be of the sort that has formal classes and excursions out.

Their being asb stems from being in that headspace that fits along with being a adult little boy having an more forever a child headspace rather like to of been a schoolboy back in the day was about your school centred life as that boy and you had a life beyond chalk, times tables and the playground.

In that way the ASB side crosses over from the adult little boy side just as the school boy and (little) boy  did back in the day.

To be one you had to be the other so they were neither stand alone identities nor one and the same.

I can't say I have any latent kink connections seeing myself mentally as a child  at all.

I just happen to be a little boy over the age of twenty one and that's how I get through stuff like sorting things on the computer just as modern boys do cos they have them too.

New Year reaffirmation

Seeing this is the start of New Year one might begin the second post of the New Year looking at resolutions which we have talked about at various sites, not just the more usual things around positions, material things and pay for those that are employed but more around the things we find difficulty with and in a less overtly religious way, our moral and behavioural traits not just in how they leave us but especially the impact on others of when get it wrong.

The following is the emotional age appropriate standard for me as a child/adult hybrid expressed in a way I can understand easier

Now that isn't too tall an order for us get to grips with so keeping to it is I feel one of the most important things this year for me to do.

There are lots of stresses and strains so perhaps you might too?

Carefree pasts

Sometimes I just feel like sitting down and writing things like short stories and reading although I struggle with both having done so since childhood but that whole carefree feel doing something is what I think I need.

There are reasons today for it not least the continual speculation and general noise about Covid as facts and figures are published by the minute, the varying spins on interpolation of data and what that means and the claims of different sections of society for measures or there removal.

Dealing with this thing has always been a balancing act rather like when I was younger the business around keeping us safe from terrorism did between our freedoms on the one hand and those who'd use them to maim or kill us as we went about our everyday lives.

It was quite scary then, I won't deny that period has left it's mark on me in many ways but we did and people respected the need to let us have the space to process what was going on as we understood it while still having a childhood without it invading your mental spaces.

I think this modern world with its twenty four hour news coverage available right down your  smartphone is making things harder to cope emotionally than it was when we had to wait for news bulletins on tv and radio for updates.

Year in review

We are moving out of the old year while preparing very much to be in the new with some uncertainty about just how the first few months are likely to go.

Last year was very messy with us being very much locked down for a few months and very gradually restrictions coming off and places opening up such as museums and holiday accommodation. 

We were able to go away for a bit in the summer but even so we had to be careful keeping the windows open and of necessity, we weren't able to go on things like the trains as there would of been too much risk.

I also decided to just go with whatever I felt okay with.

The boy fully emerged looking very much the part in a brand new blazer  and cap, wearing much shorter short trousers than before which just felt right even if we did have a fair bit of shower and rain during that time.

It was said "Someone looks as if they're ready for school".

B-B-Q with everything that could be toasted was had which was absolutely fun and fun was had for Halloween too which only showed how much face to face contact had been missed.

Forum was fairly activity this year having its own cycle of peaks and troughs with new people joining complementing ASB.net talking about a range of interests and observations.

This year I had a Hornby OO gauge British Railways class 3F "Jinty" 0-6-0 Tank Locomotive 47458 R058 in it's original box this Christmas as my main present.

That was a good sign of the progress in getting back to how I see me and acting on that rather than anyone elses ideas had come on.

We'll see how Twenty Twenty-Two turns out.

Christmas edition

Gosh we're almost there aren't we which means we take a bit of a break over Christmas as we help out and join in the various community activities as difficult as some things remain as that eternal boy.

In the past one had to tune in you tv to act as a computer monitor which is what that boy is doing for the sharpest colour image before using a game, a precompiled program or trying to write your own.

That stare was the one I had for "syntax error" as you looked in disbelief at lines of Basic code trying to figure out what went wrong.

School is out, local high schools finished early on Friday with concerns about the new variant form of Covid and the last couple of days were just games cos you can't start anything new until next term anyway.

I am fairly confident according to a leaked memo to Mr S Claus of the North Pole a Beano annual may be on the cards even if the world has changed as has the comic from this 1956 edition.

That was something many of us get and no doubt got too but isn't in the modern world and won't be in this years I'm quite sure.

Annuals were so much and for a good number still are a part of Christmas that to pick one one up and read it takes back to our boyhoods where things were simpler.

Having got this far in my three inch grey school shorts and turn over top socks from one boy to another:

****HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND ALL THE BEST FOR TWENTY TWENTY-TWO****

Finishing things off

Typical muddled up Winter week here with some strong winds, heavy showers including on Friday sleet landing on my thighs and even brilliant sunshine with temperatures up and down like a yo-yo.

The last couple of days have seen things up to about ten degrees so I've been in my three inch inside leg grey shorts walking about taking a few pictures for the other blogs between watching Jamie Johnson and listening to the latest album by the Chorister's at Kings Cathedral, Cambridge in a very Christmassy selection.

It has both traditional Christmas carols and winter songs all expertly arranged and sang.

There's just something about choirs and especially boy choristers voices that just moves me in both the singing itself technically but also the "soul" in their voices that is stronger than just the bare words sang.

I'm getting things like my cards written to be posted or hand delivered so after next week will will take a short break until after Christmas.