Staying fit

I was not well across the end of last week and into the weekend which was unfortunate but given I'm prone to severe migraines often there is little you can do other than just taking the tablets, staying in bed with the curtains drawn and avoiding anything like computers or flickering lights as they make things much worse for you.

 

One of things I loved about lockdown as much as I'd sooner it wasn't necessary has been to see boys about playing, exploring and generally having fun together.

This morning I saw one lad about ten going on a circuit run several times with the temperature at zero degrees c with his football top which was long sleeved , shorts and long socks on while I was out exploring myself.

Now to actually do this requires a certain amount of self discipline on his part as it would be easy to stay in and do his studying completely indoors but he knows exercise is what he needs in his life and is getting on with it.

This is the thing in much the same way that while I can't easily run I also do undertake physical activity out of doors.

We're both boys who know what is good for us and get on with it.

I'll just mention on here that I'm sorry to hear of Captain Tom Moore's passing yesterday after catching pneumonia and covid.

An amazing life from being in the services, owning a concrete company and raising £31 million for NHS charities last year apart from badly boosting moral, he will be missed.

R.I.P Captain Tom.

The march toward recovery

This week is one that has seen me start to get back rather more to things before the illness and other related stuff appeared tp take over much of my life and so just over a month on it would make sense to try to get back to where we were.
One form of this is to resume walking the longer route through common land, country lanes and passing fields I did until then which is what I did the other day, taking my time at it as this illness has left me lacking in energy and taking account of my feelings as I proceeded.
One of things I like about this route is once you're out of the built up area, there are a number of points where you can just and just take several minutes thing about things as one thing I have prone to do is not actually process what I actually feel whereas by stopping and putting them into words I do.
It was a beautiful warm summery day with brilliant sunshine, I suppose you could call it the "Indian Summer" sandwiched between this years sweltering July and August and the onset of The Fall. 
I felt quite emotional for being alive and able to enjoy this after what happened that could easily of robbed me of my life
I also reflected on the distance I had come  battling with issues around gender identity and gender roles over the years as I moving into a point of being more secure in myself of what I am, presenting and being interacted with as that male and of being actually gendered even if the odd like may be less than stereotypically boyish.
I just feel several times more confident socially now than I ever did before for just being me.

The roaring obsession with the World Cup

Hi. This very morning as I go toward my closet getting my old school uniform on fairly neatly although whither or not it stays like that depends on if I have a kick about this morning in the park or not as I'm super excited about this world cup in way that I haven't felt for a long time.
At least this time they're just far enough head of us here in Great Britain to see it live before bedtime without messing meal times up too much as I much prefer to eat from a table even if it is I'm more interested in what the striker is doing than my lamb chop!
I guess it all goes back to the days of Roy of the Rovers and Billy's Boots that made a big difference whenever he played with them on playing for Melchester Rovers which was so magical.
I can't wait to play with Zee Zee at Fur Affinity
Plus I'm all fired up after the Russia vs Saudi Arabia match where the Russians scored a FIVE goals to zero win. Goodness what a result and no doubt an embarrassment to the Saudi leader who was talking to the Russian President Mr. Putin at the time watching.
Still we do have the England match to look forward to although sometimes to me it seems more like a case of hope over reality as it's been positively ages since they won anything or even got as far as the quarter finals.
I did enjoy Robbie Williams's performance at the opening of the games and he's pretty good with a pair of footy boots on two having seen him play with friends for various charity soccer matches.
Cor, Germany beaten by Mexico after all. Love a duck! You'd of thought they could of put on a more inspiring performance but no so I wouldn't be surprised if they crashed out of the competition but as today sees England playing who knows as they tend to come in with high hopes only to be dashed.
I mean, I'd like to see a British team actually win I'm just not feeling very hopeful about it but don't expect me to be wildly cheering as I've lost my voice in an attempt to make myself heard on Saturday and it hasn't fully come back a yet which is annoying me to be honest cos I'm a chatterbox really, tryin' to sort everything and everybody out although the knock on door is me new smart boys own shoes cos my old pair started falling apart at the seems an that's no good when I want to be smart.It's sad when you can't cheer on England as much as I was jumping up and down in my white footy shorts Monday night high on pop waving a flag but that's how it is with me at the moment although I can talk some and actually I'm just sucking a lozenger thingy as I type this.
Japan did great too yesterday beating Columbia 2-1 in what was a a pretty exciting match which I watched just after dinner time between talking to some other adult boys like me about various things cos I'm more interest in who they are and what they do than just "What are you wearing today?" I'd like to play with them armed with a bright yellow JCB toy truck crawling across the carpet going "Zoom" and making all sorts of sounds if not just play fighting with them.
I also tidied away all my favorite Jennings books, they're like hardbacked with all color dust jackets on that I had in Juniors and High School putting them away neatly in a shoe box in two piles one atop of the other. I'd sooner use the bookcase but the grown ups in my life have taken it over with books that haven't moved in decades, like if a cutting of Princess Anne's wedding fell out of one it wouldn't surprise me in the slightest.
I did run about a bit kicking a ball to which is great as I really benefit from being active as it seems to turn me on focusing better almost as if the on button has been pressed.

Getting your masculine mojo back

Getting your mojo back can be a problem not lest if you've had the kind of background I have had but there are a number of things I find can help with it so you feel more the masculine boy you are.

One of the first things is to reduce the gap between what you think and what you do. As males we're a mixture of the innate and the cerebral where we do have the ability to take control of our thoughts and behaviours so it makes sense to ensure they are connected to identifiable end.

Be sure you know what the intended outcome of your actions are and start from there.

Integrity matters and not just for the other person so it makes sense to live with them, honour your commitments, make a task list, completing it.

The key to it is to do what you said you were going to being true to your own word.

Finally work on building up your courage which can appear to a hard task in a risk averse society like ours. Challenge yourself whither that's something connected with endurance or say learning a practising a new hobby or interest.

Don't go with the easy familiar option following the escalator everyone else uses  and learn to become more comfortable with being out of your comfort zone, trying something new.