Second Tumblr anniversary post

Not so long now, April 12th to be exact marks the second anniversary of That Boarding Schoolboy, my first Tumblr which will be marked on their and commented up on an other blog.

That blog rather like here has seen grow and make some major changes in both how I see myself and how I live my life  from the implanted suggestions that I was at least a mixture of something else and a boy to one who is fully confident as just that, feeling no need to qualify because the last two years of living and exploration of the past has show just how normally boyish I am.

The one thing at the start of this, actually a couple month before was from the period of signing at to ASB feeling such an environment would be the one that would show what my colours truly were was learning anew the norms.

Like within a day while there was no set piece uniform there is a mode of dressing that I was expected based on gender and just gender conforming from the outset as if for all that attempted brainwashing I knew what was right.

Equally having spent so long in the company of the gender questioning and those who use gender neutral forms of expression, I was getting back used to being addressed expressly as a gender and talking to boys as a member that had shared the same interests and norms rather than tip toeing in the belief that gender norms were unreal and taught rather than just being innate with scope for personal differences.

It become obvious that from the inside out that was where I fitted and that really while we all have personal differences that doesn't alter you sex and being at the social level who you are.

None of this would of happened had I of not had the means of breaking away and exploring with others and in so many respects the importance of that tumblr isn't that I still have it for the many issues at that site but that two year period has seen me move into a understanding of myself and my position as a male that I am comfortable with
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Just a adult little boy happy being a boy, being spoken to very much as one by men who I look up to showing my respect doing as I am told even in in this emergency.

And that is a great thing.

Surviving adulting edition.

By the time you've seen this I've been out for most of the day in the Court looking more like an older schoolboy in longs - I wouldn't push classic ASB presentation on His Honourable Judge even if chunks do get accepted.

That's cos I'm there to do a groan up extremely important role in Adult Society even though I'm lousy at faking being a grown cos I'm not and you know it.

Thus while I absolutely can't talk about what I've done today, the one thing that has been happening is as soon as I've got in I've changed the longs for shorts  as I've got my turn over top school socks and that on anyway to mentally switch off for a few hours before bed and another day in Court.

Then add a spot playing with my toys.

It's the only way an adult but child me can cope with this but it'll be all over with by next Friday god willing.

Birthday thoughts

Today is actually a special day but much of that will be left to the main blog on Friday to talk about such as these things do pan out.

One thing to say when it comes to any kind of annual event is for me it is more like an endless loop rather than a linear progression because for being forever a boy it is more or less the same as it ever was whatever my chronological age may be.
Thus emotionally today just feels like the tenth birthday and people sometimes say like why do you go on about things in that year I became ten and the answer was and is that's very much where what interests me and how I see things remains.
It's not that it's an identical re-run because for instance I read new books and watch new tv shows never mind things have moved from the heyday of Mud and the Bay City Rollers musically but more I engage in their modern equivalents having more in common with aspects of today's ten year olds.
Unlike then, we do use computers to view websites, play games and stream shows in ways that back then we couldn't imagine but that's just the means of doing very much the same sorts of things because beneath all that sophistication that's in modern life for all, we're still the same children with the same needs.

B is for birthday

Seeing this is a new blog I guess we need to set new  rituals and that starts with writing about an annual event 

The number of times a period of fifty-two weeks elapses in my life is considerable but in truth I'm never really older is in feeling simply because I am incapable of getting older that way and in lots of ways in real life more than perhaps for some through age-play, I remain forever young.

You just get more practised at being your emotional age that's all!

This return trip saw me have a good number cards from family and relatives although because here in the UK because they had Mothering Sunday on the same day that meant not just more going on it meant both Mum and I being at a joint meal.

There's a down to earth local public house here within a few minutes walk that often has people we know in so we went for a joint meal where I opted for Vegetable soup, a Turkey Roast  and Chocolate Fudge Pudding with ice cream which was delicious.

I had a couple of books by my favourite living authoress

A modern retelling of What Katy Did that I kinda missed out on reading for some reason or other

The latest part in the Hetty Feather historical adventure series that came out late last year in big book aka Hard Back form.

They arrived by courier less than half an hour before I was due to go out!!!

I had some money from my folks a brother and an aunt which can diverted to something appropriately little and some Amazon vouchers from my older brother that I'll need to look at how to get them to my account as techno stuff just loses me at times.

I had also like a good number of Middles and Littles  the Disney animated full length emotion movie Inside/Out on dvd and a few cds although I tend to get them through across the year whereas when I was younger they tended to be more things I had at birthdays and Christmas's

I'll conclude by thanking my friends for their birthday wishes.