Adult little boys

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Sometimes it seems the world of littles is a world missing a gender as more often than not looking at many social media sites you will see female littles usually adult little girls who loved their age regressed life, enjoying unicorns, pretty dresses and colouring but it's rare to see boys.
That as a boy really does hack me off because the only things I do see that I can relate to is things around adult males who wear school or scouting uniform which is fine but it doesn't really cover the whole business of being a little boy all over again and really it takes a little boy to have a schoolboy as a actual bio-kid.
I think a good number of them really are adult little boys but they're dressing as school boys or (cub) scouts and that is why I feel on this blog they need to be here.

The Happy House Children

A part of a solution for me might include not so much just dressing as a younger boy but also having more of the life and interests.

One of my stronger memories of my official childhood is reading, not that I was what you might call a good reader but we did have a fair number of books in the house and stored in a big wooden toy box were some of mine, usually those my Mum thought I'd outgrown.

A good example of which is this one which was really a book for seven to ten year olds that stayed in that box well into my mid teens.

It's a series of two short stories of a group of young children called Benji, Jack and Jane plus dog who have to move together with their parents and their adventures through play with other children and grown ups.

Its very innocence, the clear lessons shown about appropriate behaviour such as owning up if you do something and clear consequences for wrong doing are woven into a fun set of adventures.

It was really that I before I knew the terms I was looking for even in my mid teens as what I now know as regression was even then a part of what made me different than most of my peers not least in my own mind I WAS that younger child.

 It was why I kept the books and puppets from that era which I feel it may make more sense to go back to.

Status reversal

Something that follows from the last entry is really around what you might call the status and authority of an individual because in mainstream society we move in almost a circle from having little as a baby or toddler, approaching adulthood where increasingly we have and are expected to make things happen more by ourselves towards senior old age where a person not just requites things done for them physically but often require people to manage their care such as fixing food, seeing to it they take medication and so on.
Part of the challenge of being me is just that, people can easily drift into thinking I am an adult who is in an adult to adult relationship with you, who grasps  what it is he required to do and is mentally and physically capable of it.
The reality of it is I've never been capable of having an adult to adult relationship with you, not even that of older schoolboy of say fourteen to sixteen years of age as those such as teachers struggled to comprehend because in reality they were talking to a little boy of junior age in shorts who for good measure didn't get all the input he needed too.
You cannot equalize this out with laws and well intentioned equality centred notions of dealing with me because you will come off the buffers because I'm child in an adult body for the most part and with those needs.
The thing that has to give is the whole concept of the equality of two adults that goes beyond say Line manager to staff member where the former has the last say over the latter although he has full adult equality and see each others as equals in all other respects to a situation where you are a Parental figure who may allow a limited amount of say when it comes to me being able to do things but within the limits set by and enforced by you as a Parent to what is in effect a Child in an adult frame regarded by law as adult by date birth alone.
Everything that happens in that is not Man to Man or Adult to Adult to degenderize it but is Adult to child because one of them isn't and doesn't at that point see anything else than being that child.

At any point of discourse between me and you, the reality of the situation is the one on the left will be me and so the start point has to be although I have rights, my upper adult rights are best extinguished in order for you to exercise the level of responsibility I need from you to keep me safe and to do what I am capable of.
In the ideal world it would be men doing this because they are the natural authority figures of and to boys and moreover having had a boyhood they have a better instinctive feel  for his needs.
Having me in more obviously schoolboyish attire does help keep the necessary status differences there although when out, it may need to be toned down a little like not wearing a school tie or anything with emblems.

Modern attitudes toward discipline and even if any is needed are all over the place when it comes to bio-kids not that this blog is about bio-kids but in so far I go, because so-called natural consequences such as missing a trip for breaking a rule don't cause me to reflect on what I did and lengthy word based scolding just get muddled up leaving me more agitated then the more traditional forms of corporal punishment of my original boyhood era are better used although I would add going over what led to it to teach me what I need to do should be in there for a period afterward to afford me the chance to learn to follow the rules.
That in a way is the difference between some who may like the idea of being in uniform and punished as end in itself and where for me it's just a re-run of childhood by the rules of the day

You yourself need to be prepared to feel comfortable about treating me as your child, your son in effect and NOT as an adult guiding, teaching and where necessary disciplining me this way because we aren't and I cannot be your equal.

Adult but a child

What to call the the practical result of having developmental disorders that mean in terms of my development in a good many ways i am permanently child-like, is not the easiest of things.

Some feel I have to be made to approximate what any other legal adult is like and so feel accepting the way I am and living more child-like equates to denying me my rights as a legal adult to the point they won't give it a term and those that have created terms  have come at it from the realms of adult fantasy and sometime more of  fetish angle.

In my world, although I have some more adult level understandings of current affairs the bulk of what I feel and experience remain very much that of  boy typically of ten years, not having the other interests that come in as you would become a teenager.

What this means is as I move about even now what is going on in my head and from that what it is I am feeling like doing next is what that boy is feeling and looked upon with no reference to age recorded by date of birth as what you are observing is a child.

In the absence of much else the expression "adult little boy" is as good as any should it be really necessary to distinguish between a person who in law is an adult but almost all respects is a child and a bio-kid aka a person by age recorded by date of birth given the legal status of a child.

A child who studies at school who is male like me would be referred to as a schoolboy which takes nothing from being a boy or 'little boy' but denotes he's of the age that goes to school to learn.

Because I do remedial studying at the level of a boy of ten because of the cognitive disabilities I have affect my understanding of math and english then the term "adult schoolboy" also applies where it is necessary indicate the difference between being a bio-boy who is a schoolboy and an adult (little) boy who is also doing schoolwork for the same reasons and to a similar level.

Wrapped around it all is something else which is I dress in both how I see me and what I feel most comfortable which is often a sweater, grey school shorts and long socks so I resemble the adult but very much child me.

People in charitable sector who try to present 'normal' images of people like me would throw their hands up in horror no doubt but to be honest I prefer to seen as I am with people treating me more as how I present - an adult child.

To present me as a 'normal' adult only leads to being seen as functionally and mentally an adult would and that often leads to greater problems as I'm then in situations I cannot cope with.

Littleness, regresssion and age-play

As ever on Tumblr there's a battle going on between people over what being a little is and any involvement of those under 18 in it however as ever there is more heat than light being generated by the keyboard warriors with many meme's and posts being put up and commented on.

This one is quite well intentioned in trying to explain the difference between age-playing and what emotionally appropriate behaviour that comes from being in actual state of regression where your responses come from the child within and less than any kind of scripted character you play.

 I do feel they have however got Little Space actually quite wrong because that is the emotional and behavioural environment  that as  a person who has regressed you have got into - you feel and so respond as that child - and not the act of being a little.

To get into it it is true you need to regress or otherwise release that child within an adult body or if you are like me not to have developed into it fully anyway.

There are some who are trying to put in a schism between the ChIRes advocates of littleness by regression and that of Caregiver/littles who are being characterized as a part of of the more 'adult' bsdm side.

For  me the whole point in a CG/l relationship is effectively that while in that headspace the Caregiver is providing the love, nurturing and support that is the equal of a parent or guardian arising from those needs as their little you have.

It is not necessarily sexual although some may enjoy that however meeting any sexual needs may find themselves which might be only in their 'Big' side of life.

They are not so much opposites degrees in which individuals chose to live their lives making informed decisions recognizing as appropriate the issues of informed consent as the bottom line always is that as adults legally only we can consent-minors regardless of any other feelings simply cannot deemed the responsibility of others such as parent(s) or guardians.

To me dressing as and being treated as a little boy is the pinnacle being in such a relationship