Ain't that the truth

As this blog appears to have gained a little traction given zero publicity on my part perhaps a few words concerning it would appear to be in order.

I think the first thing to say is this isn't a zone for anyone who has or thinks they have a vagina because we don't need you here so buzz off.

Men and boys need space to talk male to male and to do things together free from female interference and so to a greater extent than was possible on Tumblr it is strictly a Boys Only spot.

I'd liken it to the boys and men's changing areas where nothing is hidden and we have no holds bar man talk about what it means to be us. Male.

The blog has a strong Age Dysphoric feel because that is just how I am and how I live my life as a child within adult body and that is reflected in my interests.

For instance I watched Blue Peter  as I do every week where they were selecting the books their panel will read and select the entries for next years Children's Book awards with three each in Fiction and Factual titles, a drawing guessing game where an illustrator draw characters from books and four children had to guess who they were.

Best of all a six year girl had written about her Granny who it transpired had flown airplanes during WW2 from the factories to the RAF as part of the Auxiliary Air Force so she got to see Imperial War Museums airplane exhibits including the Spitfire, an example of which we have here and Granny was visited and presented with a Gold badge.

I think the second thing to say was it was never really planned and programmed in the way that the other blogs and the family of Tumblrs were and are and generally acts as a place to make posts around topics that don't fit into the blogs and to whom posting about on Tumblr is highly likely to result in having your account terminated.

Some of that is because in 2019 I care to dare to call out much of the extreme liberal social and gender based bias toward the promotion of female values at the expense of males, the encouragement of effeminacy of males, the denial of binary biological sexual identity that IS integrated into real gender  identity and two faced attitudes when it comes to sexual attraction and the sex act.

It also covers the amazingly bizarre world of gender identity politics where apparently  you can have no gender and use that to push you have no physiological sex, toss in cross species gender in a list of over 100 genders most of whom are both not know to over 95% of the population and not recognized by medical science.

Criticizing that on social media or in liberal colleges and universities is likely to get you terminated or banned to protect this generations "Safe Spaces" agreements where you can't have people sharing platforms they don't agree with lest their be triggered.

Nearly all of that stuff is complete hogwash AND they're pushing at children under 10!

I don't apologize for being both male and hetrosexual but don't have an issue with anyone's sexuality so if you're reading this and you're gay or bi-sexual, fine.

Middle space

The other week I was mulling over some of things that did crop up at ASB.org, not that sadly that site lasted long, and that generally I tended to talk more in and around the role of age regression within being an adult schoolboy as from my vantage point being one comes from being in the headspace of being a adult little boy, legally an adult emotionally and psychologically very much a child of your own childhood era.

One piece of the jigsaw puzzle is how psychologically you get to being in that frame of mind and what it is that is in there and one topic that often raised its head was spanking which usually is seen as both sexual or kink centric but for some goes back into their childhood emotions and so forms a part of being in a psychological state of being a "little boy" again

The Benefits of Getting Spanked by Rodney Calmes

Many people believe that if someone likes to get spanked, it is all sexual. That is not the case all the time. Even though getting spanked has some sexual effects or enhances sexual arousal, there are many non-sexual benefits from getting spanked. What can spankings do for you?

1. Getting spanked relieves stress.

2. Getting spanked is calming.

3. Getting spanked generates endorphins and puts you in a euphoric state.

4. Getting spanked generates adrenaline and gives an adrenaline rush, especially if you are anticipating getting a very harsh one.

5. Getting spanked lifts moods. Russian psychiatrists have found success in treating depression with bare butt whippings.

6. The marks left from getting spanked is like an art of its own.

7. For some, it can restore feelings of youth.

Don’t be ashamed of getting spanked, enjoy it! For those who never tried it in your adult years, give it a try. You never know, you may like it.

There have been times when personally I have struggled with spanking as an element of being that adult little boy not least in website and on social media it's tended to dominate all discussion to the exclusion of look at the how and why we feel still "little boys" even though the law says we're adults.

That text emboldened however did set out clearly a lot of the elements for and of what I get from being spanked in an adult little boy context starting from the very child-like, child-minded side of me needing discipline, direction and correction as I have little 'native' adult or even older child sense of self including self discipline.

The whole context of being subject to spanking, being 'made' to take it at the will of a 'adult authority figure' and the emotional outcome from given a good spanking restores a strong sense of being that little boy, of being young.

Spanking given some of my issues  around relating to people, understanding appropriate boundaries forms stronger bonds with me especially between myself and adult males. I am wired very much toward physicality helps with bonding.

While it is entirely understandable a adult little boy who was abused in actual childhood would not and may even be could never accept the role of spanking within such relationships or through other outlets such as age play schools and the like, for me it's a core part, the mirror image of how it was to me as a boy. 

I have decided to allow people to spank me without question from now on.

Online rant time

Actually I'm pretty pissed today over something that honestly makes little sense and something that seems to plague online ASB communities.
I publish a few tumblrs, chances are if your ALB or ASB you've encountered mine and we have two sets of problems on Tumblr.
The first is Tumblr tends to inexplicably terminate accounts of those of us are ALB or ASB even though we've not formally broken any of their terms of service, it seems that they see blogs that have a highish if not total preoccupation with perfectly safe for work images of boys with no sexual comments as being in some way connected with Child Exploitation rather than say nostalgic reflections on youth.
This pushes some to become "Gatekeepers" trying to remove anything they think may threaten their own blogs with instances of them reporting others.
The other is people who decide arbitrarily to block you from following them with no attempt to contact you if any aspect of your activity may cause concern.
At the weekend a number of Tumblr blogs of our sort were terminated one of which I did reblog on a regular basis from connected around outdoor pursuits and scouting  even since i established a tumblr specifically around that naturally was very much safe for work respectful of minors and to whom they'd not had an issue with me.
I found on Sunday they'd made a new new account so I messaged them from the same account 'd used before, they confirm it is them and the lo and behold, they had blocked me meaning I cannot reblog from them.
Nothing on my account or that Tumblr had changed in the space of a couple of days and yet they had deliberately stopped me from seeing their profile and reblogging.
You sometimes feel like tossing the towel in with them.

Bonds and Role of dress

Today's post does build upon a little from last weeks and probably will tie in with a future post or two as a number of ideas whizz though my mind rather like a certain boy in the Beano did when I was younger.

Bonding really is big one because it's really about a shared sense of identity that leads to a emotional and social sense of connection that almost instinctively you recognize each other, connecting.

You look each other in the eye and feel that you can share things about yourself such as your feelings and interests with each other to the point you become mates, play mates forever together kicking a ball about, playing chess, a computer game or just engaged in horseplay.

You may talk about a book you read, a comic you follow religiously or your musical likes and dislikes as we did often did over school dinners comparing the merits of Wizzard, Mud, the Bay City Rollers and Pilot or what you did at cubs. 

You may talk about what you like to wear outside school.

It's possible that you may even talk about what it means and how it feels to be a schoolboy which I have heard a few do because our school uniforms our just a part of how we are as school boys.

I always loved my uniform but I loved and still love being him.

 
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Getting back to where you once belonged

I would be easily to rail at much that is wrong with the world right now but sometimes it's better to let the red mist drift off and look at what is working instead.
This whole life has been going on a pretty long time to be honest a few rabbit holes I was pushed along into excepted and a few attempts at masking aside but with much of the former it really messed me up.
The thing always was from the outset I was much more younger less by the standards of people of the same birth age 'mature' than most and as time went on that gap got bigger to the point  increasingly I had little really in common outside of work and even within to assume I was an adult was an assumption too far.
I had to be handled more like a schoolboy on work experience than a grown man, kept an eye on and have things explained to me simply.
Even if elements of how I presented might of looked more mainstream like wearing mainly Chino pants even if they were fully elasticated then other elements like wearing more school type sweatshirts and having animal design backpacks and cute plushies on the desk were not.
My drifting back after the misguided attempts to take me down other rabbit holes toward being an adult little boy, finally accepting I was in no way functionally adult was a breakthrough as was deciding to present myself at all times as that little boy of junior age has enabled me to be seen and treated more as that adult but child by literally casting the adultness off me whenever I'm in company at home or in the community.
By appearing in my shirt, grey shorts and matching long grey socks, I am no longer mistaken by people for an adult and they feel more able to exercise the kind of protected oversight and authority I need having de-adulted myself in public.
Thus for me life for having made this step is all the more better.

Gender and dolls

Recent Mattel owners of Barbie announced they were going to create a range of Gender Neutral dolls so in theory at least the child can choose view it as it wants.

The first thing I will say is actually the bodies of the dolls look more female to me, particularly the faces even if eyebrows and lips have been made less obviously female or male.

And really that's where the problem with this starts because while any child has imagination and could create less gender conforming stories with props for their dolls in the end the appearance of all of us is determined through biology.

Hormones determine muscle, the shape of faces which when anyone medically transitioning from one gender to another becomes apparent: They look different apart from keeping breasts when it comes to female to male and penis and testicles because those things and a lot of internal 'plumbing' can't be easily reversed except by surgery and even then the internals are stuck.

You can argue for wide roles between the genders, equal pay and voting rights but in the end we are gendered to which no amount of after the fact human manipulation alters with significant numbers even regretting ultimately.

We don't get to chose our gender or to be genderless in reality, picking the parts only to write the script of what our gender means to us personally including our own choices about interests, hobbies and careers.

To further encourage children to believe against science that they can do so rather than finding themselves loving their bodies as they are to me is basically wrong.

I'd soon give boys and girls anatomically accurate male and female dolls to dress up, have fun playing with other kids with wither or not they play war games, hospital roles, caring for people and animals or whatever because that's the reality for all of us-we do what personally we're good at.

Left liberal gender politics doesn't belong in the world of Children especially when it sows confusion.

Wednesdays musings

After so much discourse about language this week in parliament a few thoughts on the topic.

I would never advocate screaming your head off but just wittering away about your feelings and expecting everything sugar coated simply doesn't cut it when it comes to serious discussion nor does knowing when to finish making your point.

An awful lot of women do think they are so superior they just jabber away as if no one who is male actually matters especially when concentrate on feelings rather than facts and consequences.

It is no surprise the best legal and political female brains are more like mens!

Because of the obsession with how it feels rather than what it actually is, a chunk of women find they have often misread situations and deny any man the chance to actually explain cos they think they have it so right they are only looking for confirmation of that bias.

l hate to sound sexist but some females are emotional weaklings who trade on "but you wouldn't hurt my feelings" simper simper.

Sometimes it makes more sense to go with what your man is wanting. Why go to a party if you don't wish to dance and when many women like a man who takes the lead naturally?