Hard wiring

Seeing there's a bit of time this weekend I might as well use it in connexion with this blog.

This picture taken at the Armed Forces day at the Coldstream Guards says something that while some in society may feel uncomfortable with nontheless has to be which is boys gravitate to what they see as stereotypical interests no matter how much challenging of them they may attempt.

I played with soldiers inventing conflicts using all the weaponry we had even though my Mom thought I was more delicate with quite some aggression.

While I'm for respecting individuals, face it, most boys are hard-wired to playing soldiers, do gravitate to men who are soldiers wanting to be them learning from them how to be the men we will be become.

Thus it's hardly surprising this boy is wearing a camouflage hat and enjoying handling a weapon.
We should be just left to pursue our own genders interests.   

Going back for good

After much activity at my site and on tumblrs, you may well say and what's really left to say but you'd be pretty much wrong.

To me this is how I see my life now, that is the not inconsiderable instability politically over here reminded me of why it was I left that side of my life several years back which was it was taking its toll on me mentally apart from the problem area of dealing with adults when in so many ways I am really a child who lacks those skills and that awareness.
A person, let's call them X, knows me from that period and does things in the wider community here has noticed me out wearing my very much schoolboyish outfit not least the grey shorts and long socks asking what's that about?
To be honest I don't even obliged to answer such a question although it's bloomin' obvious which is I've given up any pretense of adulthood short of tax statements, social insurance payments for my real life disabilities and the like because it doesn't really fit me.
Let's rephrase that: It could not fit me because that is a stage in my personal development that I cannot and have not reached and so in all other respects remain a child, that child which if it were any other would of  been a adult and happy as such.
That world is not one I can cope with, moreover I never asked to have those things because those things and an 'adult' status do not offer me anything I truly can use so I'm handing back as much as that unwanted status as I can  while presenting myself as the juvenile male I am instead.
At least I'll get treated by my emotional and developmental age more. 

Staying awake

A few days back at one were talking a little around past childhoods, what they were like  as school boys and girls and the differences between today and our pasts.

As some remarked in our day you were expected to give nothing less than 100% attention to the subject in hand or you'd be in for a rude awakening that was for sure.
A not uncommon situation that would arise when someone would appear to be asleep  back then would the board rubber typically a wooden black with a felt base for removing chalk off the board would go flying through the landing somewhere near you if not on you.
You would soon wake up often in time for a more severe punishment for it.
This boy sure know all about his dozing off during the lesson all right.
As well I also got talking with a number of others about what this whole adult little boy was about and what matters within it.

On being LB

Sometimes I see similar banners and the like on Tumblr which as you probably would of gathered is a place that I do hold very mixed thoughts over such as it was the first place I saw a adult little boy/adult schoolboy  community as when you look around it's almost a pink only zone of adult female littles of various kinds, some more aligned to bdsm and kink and others not being pretty much exclusively regression centred.

I say that having looked a blogs, old school community focused websites as well as multi-purpose social media.
It's good that on Tumblr there is such a thing as "Boy Regression" although like everything regression there there's a divide between regression purists and those who while being very much against sexualizing being little and the regressive space feel you can't ignore some my have outside of that space romantic feelings or age appropriate sexual relationships that outside of that regressed place some may like.
Like I think we all can recall in our teens going from platonic friendships with some people to those with more romantic or other aspects but we knew the lines we shouldn't cross and being a teen is part of childhood but you'd never have one with an adult (and they should know better).
I think the purists whatever may of happened in their own loves are just cutting out what traumatizes them which is fine for themselves (although they may need therapy to enable themselves to have more mature kinds of relationships) but are projecting a barrier at all others shaming them in the process.
Being a (adult) little boy is "valid" because we are in the mind set of our younger little boys selves from which we revert to the feelings emotions and sensations we loved as that little boy.
Unlike some in the more Adult Schoolboy side I don't feel it's all around what you wear as the little boy although you may get more from looking like him which is something I discovered very much at the start of this  many years ago but more it's the extent you 'become' him all over again as you act from your little side playing or perhaps studying that's the measure of it.
It's that being that counts and that sure is Valid.