Wednesday, 15 February 2017

Littles away time 2017

As you may of gathered, I was away for a period last week so I wasn't about for that period not just 'cos I didn't bring the Chromebook with me but in any event the internet where we was was down most of the time so here's how it went.

I caught the bus on Friday (2/9) from our estate to get a connecting bus to our railway station, one of biggest in the UK and the premier one in the North-west Midlands as I was told no taxis were available only to find out later on one did come!

Fortunately the connections worked out fine so I arrived in good time to catch the first train as I needed to catch a service to the outskirts of Birmingham to meet up with a friend who'd take both of us to the large property in Eastern England we'd be at.

I stopped overnight having had biscuits and tea followed by a beef stew for evening meal while we talked about things about what we were doing and some techno stuff.

Upon waking up first thing as we needed to start out around ten o clock, we saw a half inch of snow on the roofs as it had  snowed overnight so we packed a shovel just in case and after a light breakfast set off. It had stopped snowing where we were but as we got near Leicestershire it resumed briefly not without some idiot trying to cause a multiple pile up that would of involved us!

We were a little early so stopped at a famous reservoir nearby meeting with two others in our group before arriving after we had exclusive use of the property during our stay.

After bringing our cases in I quickly had wash as people were sorting out individual rooms which involved putting room signs up so having found mine that was downstairs because of my mobility issues,  I set my room up.

I opened the first lot of Jelly Babies having carried the one kilogram bag with me, putting them in a bowl in the front room and soon the first of the week's jigsaws to finish was set out on a table.

By the time everyone had arrived, it was getting time to order some food as we all were too tired to fix our own so we placed a big order for mainly curries which for me included Chicken Tikka Nega which is like bits of a Chicken Tikka and fries in a bag from a well regarded Indian takeaway.
I changed then into my trademark blue  top and grey shorts with a red "Junior Prefect" badge that was close the last avatar I had here that I had on until Monday.




On of the Sunday, We had a morning arts and craft session where those mystery objects which for me included a clay hedgehog money-box to paint, a goodie bag that included  bits came in handy so I could paint a horse and make it's tail and do a bit of origami, assembling a card pigs head mask and attaching a piece of elastic.

Although I required a bit of help with part of this, actually I found it  really enjoyable putting me in little headspace being the sort of thing we did at school.

As an experiment we had Hot Dogs and Hamburgers for lunch  as we'd normally have a meat salad that soon disappeared  down our tummies like we were ravenous dogs. I think it's safe to say that sure was a hit with everyone.

In the afternoon we were treated to a couple of cartoons from Hello Kitty and friends before moving on the main feature, a showing of The Secret Life of Pets which was really funny and in a couple of spots a bit sad too. During the intermission tubs of icecream were served and popcorn was on tap throughout.

Emma cooked a lovely Beef roast with steamed vegetables that you'd of gladly of paid for commercially as it was that delicious and provided a New York style cheesecake.

In the evening the lesser spotted Catboy that had snucked in with Andrew on Saturday presented a music quiz with a twist: namely most of the questions had a connection to Animals which was the theme of this weeks camp.

I was pleased to see it went down rather well having prepared it, with people having a laugh, making gestures and at one point even singing the Hippopotamus Song which is really the point of this - having fun - and one member and Karl won it!

Monday saw me change dress to a a bluey-grey one with a top  pocket on what would be my left for a handkerchief that I stayed in for the duration of the time.

On the Monday we had in cookery decorating Gingerbread Men overseen by Emma using icing although as I was having a periodic R.S.I. flare up making fine wrist/finger control difficult, I opted to do a little colouring instead. This underscores one point which is while obviously they'd be little point meeting up to do nothing but sit in your room, no one has to OR can make you do any one activity as much as they'd like everyone to take part in theirs.

Later on  we  had a treasure hunt involving finding various teddy bears and searching everywhere for clues.
In the evening we watched a few videos of previous meet ups which was interesting.

On Tuesday we had the second arts and crafts session in the morning and I did some photography as we had extensive grounds plus good light.

After lunch, Alice made a video based on ideas from the group of a group of littles going on a hunt for teddy bears which we called "Unbearable" with us all acting in it shot out in the grounds and edited digitally in the house.

Karl made and cooked a scrumptious Cottage Pie with vegetables for our evening meal before three people played guitar, keyboards and sang a number of songs together which was much appreciated.

On Wednesday we need to leave so apart from packing our cases which I'd been doing a bit at a time, we had breakfast and two by two made our ways off with myself and Andrew being the last to leave so we and Karla finished off some of the salad before driving away.

We hit very dull torrential rain around Northamptonshire and into Warwickshire with some flooding in places coming back.

As Andrew  had other business to attend to necessitating her earlier departure, Martin who was going into town anyway kindly dropped me off at the station to catch the train back to mine ready to get a taxi back to the door to be greeted by Marmalade feigning disinterest.

For me this period was mixture of things, first and foremost time to actually regress in the company of like minded people doing actual child-like things together face to face, building relationships of which for me one important thing was being able to talk and show things with  someone I'd only met online.

It's one thing to be at home with your Netbook or Smartphone talking with people, it's a whole nother thing being under one roof together for days.

It also showed the strengths of our group such as those who catered for us, Beth's inspired littles doodling on plastic backed paper that made the place look and feel like real littlespace that we belonged in and indeed she put a awful lot of thought into everything including the arts and crafts, Sam's activity program so while we had spaces for personal littlespace, it provided the structure for more group things and not least the organizers handling of the booking and monies which went very smoothly. I think I did good with my quiz.

Seeing one of the assembled reinvent the ancient tradition of boarding school midnight feasts  brought a smile to my face. 😃

It also showed how I'd got some control over my social anxiety and had assumed more responsibility to be engaged directly in contributing to our activities, not least helping out and doing my chores.

Wednesday, 8 February 2017

What I emulate

This picture taken at Ravenscourt Park tube station round the 1970's or early 1980's gives a good representation of how as a boy back then I dressed although there was a schism between state high schools which were increasingly long trousered for all between 11 and a half and independant prep schools which were very much shorts until leaving at 14.

The last school I had short trousers as uniform was my junior school in Junior 4 before transferring although I did manage to sneak some in when say on residential trips and to a large extent it is that era I look back to today as an age regressed adult little boy.

Compared with today, the shorts are shorter and that is what we were all used to back then and that style is now what I am emulating today wearing shorts of a similar leg length allowing for height.

In the discussions around inside leg that point gets lost is that you were shorter then.

For instance a ten year old boy today is around 4 foot 6 (1.38 metres) and today I am around 5 foot 7 so if you take the height proportions down an inside leg of one and half inches then looks the same as three does now.

I am now in three inch inside leg charcoal grey shorts and believe you me that feels quite different  to six or especially nine.

Wednesday, 1 February 2017

As you are seen

Things are different with me in that like most boys I may wear some more casual clothes like track pants for playing the default is short trousers worn formally with a tie and shirt.


Whenever anyone looks me up and down they see a boy of ten very much subservient to adult authority who speaks when he is spoken to.

Wednesday, 25 January 2017

Being

 

This is the world I've known from the minute that I had been expected to dress myself more even though with my disabilities it was and remains difficult  needing help fastening things like ties, shoe laces and shirt buttons.

It's the eternal boy of ten I see every time I look at the dressing table mirror

Wednesday, 18 January 2017

Tv highlights

 

One of the programs I liked to watch on Saturday's was Jim'll Fix It, a requests program where people young and sometimes old would write in asking to meet various people or to do something that normally they wouldn't have access to.

I would sit glued to the screen in rapt attention throughout the show as the requests where read and film of them having this dream come true fixed would be shown sometimes with the person appearing live on the show afterwards.

Jimmy Saville  the shows presenter is widely believed to had been involved in sexual assaults whose details came out after his death although there are some who suggest on the information given it was unlikely.

He also presented on a number of occasions the pop music show Top of the Pops where it was just about the only place anyone who had to be in bed for nine if not a a quarter to nine had to see and hear music on the tv.

Whatever the truth of that might be, it doesn't take away how I felt about the shows and it's place in the week's highlights at the time for me.

Wednesday, 4 January 2017

New Year 2017 edition

 

So Christmas has ended, we carefully put away our christmas tree lights, festive angels and of course Mary and Joseph nativity scene for another year while we watch the new year special programs on BBC including these days our beloved CBBC.

Just what the year may bring it is hard to say for there are some key rituals we reinact like birthdays and our hols but then there's so much randomness too from the pleasant surprises to the really sad but it all balences out in the end.

That at least is what Mum always says.