Getting on with it

Sometimes I wonder where so much of my attitudes and behaviour comes from but it came to me the other day that there were several episodes that shaped it.

One was the occasions when I was at home where in theory at least my younger brother was looking after me although if this chronological age thing had anything to do with it it would of been the other way around.

Ours was a house like a good many back then that had a coal fire in the front room although we did burn the odd bit of wood and that although it wasn't a proper log burner that having spent what seemed like ages getting it going with firelighters, tindling and coal, you needed to keep well lit until it was time for bed in order for us to stay all cozy playing or watching tv.

He always seemed put out to be this kind of situation, thinking somehow my being disabled cost home unspecified lost opportunities and for good measures had a number of crazy ideas of one tended to be someone just HAD to make it possible for him to spend his money and still get more.

Unfortunately he took to psychologically bullying me in attempts to make up the difference, thinking if he kept it up I'd hand over either my pocket money or holiday funds to him that day and if that wasn't enough he come back the next day for more.

Well this particular evening it must of turned toward Eight PM as it had gotten dark and Mom and Dad had gone to some event in our district leaving him in charge as my older brother was on older teen business that you know you didn't ask much about.

It wasn't long before he kept putting forward demands for handing over my money saying I didn't need it that week and he wanted it one after another never letting go to the point he'd really wound me up and I chucked that money right into the fire saying if was going to get it when my back was turned then that was it.

To a large extent as you get older, you put it out of your mind  because to a large extent  you need to to get on with the rest of your life and in any event you wouldn't like to give him that power over you that he felt entitled to.

Fairly recently I told Mum about this and she was dumfounded to hear about had gone on.

Idealism vs Reality

To me, this is one of the most important messages of the Winnie the Pooh stories that I feel are so important for boys to read and learn from.

It is sad we cannot always be with the people we love and loved the most but the most important thing is what it is we learn from them and about ourselves that we take forward on this adventure called LIFE we are on.

OUR adventure begets that of others who become apart of it and carry on as we in time leave it, learning lessons that all of us badly need to learn to make the most of ourselves and our lives.

We don't give up, we move forward instead.

The 77 Annual at last!

 

It's not Christmas as I battle with strong winds and rain apart from getting my hair cut at the Barbers this morning  as it's grown  a bit but out of sync one thing has arrived.

It had been announced that a new comic Annual was coming out but like many niche things being dependant upon crowd sourcing from the likes of Kickstarter, it all takes time to get to the point the print run can be set to roll.

The77 annual is a bumper 136 page anthology of original stories in a very modern take on the 80s UK annual format.

Comic annuals always were a staple of Christmas's with me for being something you'd gain much enjoying from reading across the year and given the loss of so many of the comics and associated annuals I grew up with to have a all new one was just a dream.

Created by a mix of the best new talent and creators we know and love including the likes of Glenn Fabry, Lew Stringer, Steve Pugh, Andrew Sawyers and Ade Hughes some that do work for mainstream comics and others mixing with independents.

This Annual features the greatest strips from one of the hottest independent comics around and covers a multitude of genres from Sci Fi to WW2 that makes for a varied read which was more what I looked for back then.

This is just the tonic I've been looking for in the last few weeks.

I guess I'm different

Life is for some of us different.

There is no getting away from being physiologically and legally an adult however young you may look, passing for casually at least but in most other ways the way you live your life is at variance to your peers.

Some may be surprised, perplexed even  if they were to eavesdrop into your world devoid of much of what they foresee as "normal" as much as it is questionable if theirs is any the more balanced and satisfying.

That is missing for many adult lives, as concepts such a there remaining a need to 'play', time between employment  and getting to bed to just switch off from things like news and the like living a moment you create.

Sometimes you just need to take a step out from from the hubbub of adult concerns.