The languages of apology I can be taught

As a reader of this blog, you will have realized I'm by no means  perfect having gotten into situations that I shouldn't and a good part of what it is about is helping me change those habits of a lifetime in part by the establishment of clear rules for me to learn to live more by.

 

The other side to this is teaching me what to to put things right in real time so I assume appropriate responsibility for my own actions where in the past I've ever shrugged my shoulders or attempted to play a card - usually a disability card to exempt myself from the standards expected of others.

It helps when people hold me to account so I am as responsible as I am actually capable of disabilities aside so I learn to conform to your standards and expectations.

Middle bedrooms

A big chunk of the other blog is more around the life of a Middle while this looks at the other aspects of being a middle with a littleside but given the connectedness a post around it is justified.

The bedroom of a Middle I feel should be as close to that of a Tween or younger teen as possible not necessarily traditional in its furnishings but true to original intent of being his place of rest and sleep, away from the buzz of daytime.

It should be very much an expression of his boyish innocence with cute simple bedding with matching curtains and lightshades with just what he needs to get his sleep in and nothing more being free from techo attractions calling him as he lies in bed.

There will be shelving for his plushies, teddies and figures that are not in his bed or positioned on his chair as well as his books with a small rack for current comics that he reads by himself with a small angle light.

One thing there will not be is a place for his mobile phone or netbook to be resting because there would be a house rule they are to left well away in the front room.

You may restrict other technology such as audio or tv stuff  preferring him to share with others and view with you to help keep a close shared bond alive rather than have retreat to a inner world avoiding conversation.

There will be a wardrobe with enough space to hang his clothes including her uniform properly on hangers with space for shoes and slippers and draws for his underwear in addition to the cute pj's you'll put her in like the Middle with little side he is.

The overall feel will be light and airy with lots of space to play in and walk along with ease across the whole room.

You will have rules about keep it tidy being prepared to work with him on keeping them.

Junior Chris

One form of Junior me is like this, just devoid of blazer where the longer grey school shorts was changed for a shorter hard-wearing lined one similar to that wear by boys at my junior school did and where the V neck sweater allowing my shirt and school tie to show through.

The key word in this 'Junior', pre-teen, as that's very much how feel my inner child is and mentally I'm at as afterward the mismatch between appearing teen and how I was (and remain) really became more noticeable to the point I had to be looked after and even sheltered from some aspects of regular teen life.

Like many of us I guess I was feeling a bit despondent following Monday's announcement we were going into England wide full lockdown with stricter rules as I have done as much as I can to stay within them, looking after my health trying to keep transmission down when you've seen stupid and irresponsible behaviour  by others often go unpunished.

While we are told we "should" only go out once to exercise that wording doesn't imply you cannot or that doing so will be automatically a breach of the Corona regulations more that they'd rather you didn't.

In this district it is possible to go out and hardly encounter a soul so if you were that way minded you could probably do so safely with no more risk than being in your own (fair sized in my case) garden.

I guess it's going be more comic reading and time outdoors playing and at least this time the playgrounds will be open.

Making Babysteps to recovery

To make a real recovery you need to go back to the point things started to go adrift and for me it was really around about thirteen.

In the ideal world I'd of been in middle school, who would of understood for my increasing sophistication when it came to interests fundamentally I was more a advanced junior rather than an mini adult.

You might understand sex appeal but you're not thinking along sexual lines in the way those over fourteen often are having the same sorts of needs as say a ten or eleven year old.

Heck I was still playing very much in the manner of one even as my peers where I lived moved on, still having adventures with action man and playing with my lego sets.

I was still very much tactile and  given to emotions.

Just acting older and blocking out my real needs such as play, reading more junior fiction and having adventures did me no good.

Ungrowing and being more a mature Boy really is of more use to someone like me.